The 5D Basic

August 21, 2017 at 10:02 am 55 comments

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Summary of Brenda’s August 18, 2017, channeled 15-minute “Creation Energies” show at http://www.BlogTalkRadio.com/brenda-hoffman: Unlike Universal energies, eclipses are human activation times similar to Christmas. Just as Christmas is labeled by humanity as a time of love and sharing, eclipses can be defined in any manner you wish. The energies provided by the Universes never dissipate but instead are similar to an ongoing class that can be joined or retaken at any time. Human activation times, such as this Eclipse, are limited to the time defined by humanity.

“Micro to Macro Dream Time” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for http://www.LifeTapestryCreations.com.

Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.

Dear Ones,

Perhaps you feel as if your transition is moving too slowly – or too rapidly. You are confused and angry for that which you wish to create is not yet available, and that which you wish would not happen is.

Your thought processes are awash with multiple pieces of information – most of which include the hidden word, ‘should.’

Perhaps you believe that such is not so, that you are following your inner voice. But whatever you believe you should be doing, the first question always needs to be, “Is this action or thought process giving me joy?”

Some of you believe that you must shift the world or yourself as rapidly as possible, that you are, in a sense, a world savior and to complete that task you must ignore your joy.

Even though perhaps counterintuitive to many, you can ONLY save the world by living your joy. It is the totality of joyful light you emit in unison that will shift the world.

For you to believe you must protest or say this or act in this or that fashion because those thoughts and actions are aligned with your hopes for the earth, is to follow 3D shoulds instead of your inner joy.

That is not to say you cannot protest or speak out if such provides you with an inner joy, but that you are not helping anyone, least of all yourself if you speak out because you believe you should.

Many of you are terrified that the actions of today will create more hatred tomorrow, that if you do not speak up, the current earth chaos and hatred will only grow deeper. You are assessing these issues with 3D historical perspectives.

In 3D, everyone needed to think similar thoughts – and to counter hate with hate to do so.

Even though individual 5D thoughts are unique, those thoughts create a more harmonious whole than was possible in 3D. For your 5D beliefs are no longer based on hate or fear, they are formulated from love – including self-love.

This is indeed a confusing time for you as you float in and out of 5D or beyond, yet live in a fading 3D world. So it is you most often approach hate in a 3D fashion. You gather with like-minded people to discuss the outrageousness of whatever is counter to your dominant belief pattern – fully believing you are doing so out of love.

In truth, your actions are of 3D love. You have, for the most part, yet to discover 5D or beyond love.

So it is you become angry with 3D actions that are unlike your 3D belief patterns expecting the chaos to continue unless you do so.

You feel as if you are earth’s savior. That without your continued strident approach to the chaos, the world will be lost.

This is no longer a 3D earth with 3D chaos, nor are you of 3D. It is time for you to create a new approach. One that is unique to you and lights your beacon of joy.

Of course, you are now asking to have your new, correct path outlined so that you can perform as you SHOULD. There are no shoulds in 5D and beyond. What gives you joy? Protesting? Reading a book? Camping? Working? Watching children play? Yoga? That is your protest. That is how you will rid the world of the current chaos.

Of course, such a path seems counter-intuitive, lazy, even inappropriate – but then, those thoughts are based on the struggles of yourself and others in 3D.

This is a new time and a new life. You are learning 5D basics. And the key to all 5D basics is to follow your joy. Do what feels wonderful to you, and you will rid the earth of its current chaos. Your beacons of joy will illuminate the earth so those with shadow aspects they are not willing to acknowledge will have few places to hide.

Continue to scream, “This is not right, why are others not thinking and acting as I believe they should?” and the shadow aspects of all are given more power.

Joy lights your beacon. Fear eliminates your beacon. Your need to have others think and act as you believe they should or from a historical perspective merely feeds fear and reduces light.

For your light is dimmed or eliminated when you function in fear. So be it. Amen.

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  • 1. Stefan  |  August 21, 2017 at 10:10 am

    Thank you Brenda & enjoy the eclipse.

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    • 2. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 12:46 pm

      Thank you, Stefan. Will do!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Self-love Sparkles,
      Brenda

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  • 3. Eliza Ayres  |  August 21, 2017 at 11:30 am

    Reblogged this on Blue Dragon Journal and commented:
    Thank you, Brenda.

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  • 5. Inma  |  August 21, 2017 at 12:54 pm

    Hi Brenda! Great reminder! Thank you 🙏
    Lots of Love,

    Inma

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    • 6. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 4:55 pm

      Hi Inma,
      Isn’t it amazing how many reminders we need to stay in joy??? It’s such an easy concept – unless you’ve spent eons in fear.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
      Brenda

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      • 7. Inma  |  August 21, 2017 at 6:08 pm

        👌 ❣

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  • 8. jokesblogt  |  August 21, 2017 at 4:53 pm

    Again an amazing post, joyfully touching the essence: live joyfully:-)
    Sooo simple, it seems indeed. And what keeps me from living it every moment is exactly the mind with its interminable list of shoulds and shouldn’ts…
    Thank you, Brenda! Always a joy to read your weekly message x

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    • 9. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 4:57 pm

      Hi Jokesblogt,
      I have the same issue – Oh, those shoulds!!!! Now to remember and live in joy!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Self-love Sparkles,
      Brenda

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    • 11. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 10:47 pm

      Thank you so much for posting my two channels at DreamWeaver333 Dreamweaver333.WordPress.com

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  • 12. E.J.  |  August 21, 2017 at 8:34 pm

    What a crock of b .s. There is NO SEPARATION in 5D and higher vibrations. Touting “Is this action or thought process giving me joy?” is perpetuating a separation agenda, and is NOT consistent with 5D which is the vibration of Oneness. All this emotional attention further perpetuates only the SELF/EGO/MIND of one who exists in the illusion of separation. Brenda, are you willing to take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for what you are teaching others here?

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    • 13. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 10:50 pm

      Dear E.J.
      Just as is true for all, E.J., take what pieces, if any, from materials that feel right for you and discard/ignore the rest.
      Blessings,
      Brenda

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    • 14. G  |  August 22, 2017 at 4:57 am

      I would venture to say that anyone who could begin a comment on a free, positive blog with “what a crock of b. s.” or say someone is “spewing crap” is definitively not in unity, 5D, oneness, connected to source or whatever you want to call it. I would suggest you take ‘full responsibility’ for the vitriol you seem to be spewing yourself.

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      • 15. elizabethsadhu  |  August 22, 2017 at 1:30 pm

        Amen,amen! I got a notice the E.J. unsubscribed, while spewing even more vitriolic words. Oh well……..no need for that kind of “joy” here. Love you all

        thanks again, Brenda, for sharing your amazingness and your joy.

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      • 16. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 22, 2017 at 3:14 pm

        Hi Sweetie,
        Joy and love are much more fun!
        Lots of Love, Blessings, and Ongoing Joy Sparkles,
        Brenda

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    • 17. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:49 am

      What definitely 5D is not is rudeness, vulgarity, coarseness, scurrility, nastiness, broadness…..I continue?…
      Whirlwind Cris
      ( By the way, this intervention does give me joy) 😉

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  • 18. Iconoclast  |  August 21, 2017 at 9:10 pm

    Reblogged this on Infinite Shift.

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    • 19. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 21, 2017 at 10:51 pm

      Thank you so much, Iconoclast, for posting my channel at Infinite Shift Infiniteshift.wordpress.com

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  • 20. NadineMarie (Aligning With Truth)  |  August 21, 2017 at 10:48 pm

    AMEN to this, Brenda! Thank you & Much L ❤ ve to you!!!

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  • 21. elizabethsadhu  |  August 22, 2017 at 12:50 am

    Hey sweetie—so perfect! Thank you! I have gotten the image of a snail trail that we leave……we can leave joy or anything…….and as others go over that same path….they feel it and pick up on it and then leave their own snail trail……..

    And I so appreciate that I don’t need to judge myself that I really mostly feel very quiet and not wanting to do much right now. Oh joy! Oh rapture!

    Thanks for this lovely reminder.

    Wasn’t the eclipse a fabulous and amazing event? I love it that we both live in the totality.

    love you tons and tons…….

    I am thinking of a new meaning for the acronym b.s. Beautiful Stuff.

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    • 22. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 22, 2017 at 10:00 am

      Hi Sweetie,
      Love your snail trail analogy. So true – we pick up what we want when we want it. I just feel blessed that we can instantly share our fears, joys, information, and love via the Internet. I’ve been VERY quiet for the past few months and now I feel the need to connect more. Quiet, connect, quiet, connect and so we evolve one phase at a time.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Joy Sparkles,
      Brenda

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  • 23. Marina  |  August 22, 2017 at 4:14 am

    Good morning Brenda! My joy includes reading your weekly post, so once more I say “Thank you”.
    Sending you L❤️ve and Light,
    Marina 💕💕

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    • 24. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 22, 2017 at 10:01 am

      And so we share, care and evolve into our beacons of light, Marina!!!!!!!!

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  • 25. Ginger  |  August 22, 2017 at 5:04 am

    Thankyou Brenda!
    I haven’t commented much lately but so very much appreciate your radio show and reading this channeling each week!
    I seem to be testing my own resolve at the moment, in terms of big pressures and old ‘shoulds’ reflected from others that are challenging to deal with.. so the reminder to stay steadfastly focused on my joy is very much appreciated.
    Much love 💞💛
    Ginger

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    • 26. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 22, 2017 at 10:04 am

      Hi Ginger,
      And I seem to be purging myself of old wounds. Interesting how both of us and so many are letting go of pieces that no longer serve us. To new us in a New Earth!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Joy Sparkles,
      Brenda

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  • 27. Mi'kiera  |  August 22, 2017 at 12:32 pm

    Reblogged this on kristallijnenpoortblog.

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    • 28. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 22, 2017 at 3:08 pm

      Thank you so much, for posting my channel at kristallijnenpoortblog kristallijnenpoortblog.wordpress.com

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  • 29. Stefan  |  August 22, 2017 at 1:35 pm

    Just wanted to share this nice story. Over the last few weeks, a commercial free online jazz radio was having a fund raiser in order to stay alive. They have no income from anywhere and are completely listener supported.
    A week ago they were a huge amount short of raising the required money. I contribute a monthly amount yet wanted to help more, I wanted to write a message to the listeners… yet something inside of me said: just watch what happens without your help.
    Today, 2 days before the end of the broadcasts, they announced they reached the treshold and are able to continue. Yes! It made me really happy and also satisfied to know it was a success without my extra help. Another experience in letting go and trusting the Force.
    Also a great example of how you can do or promote what you love, and use a new way of funding by the same people that love what you do as well. No investors, banks, loans,… Free top notch jazz music for jazz fans supported by jazz fans.
    Sounds 5D to me.

    For those who would like to get some ear candy as well, the radio station is called “the jazz groove”.
    Have a nice day.

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  • 31. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:11 am

    Dear Brenda,
    What a great truth is this: you do not have to be the savior of the world …. if it does not give you joy.
    Well, it’s true, I’m always the first to volunteer to help others, especially family and friends, to send letters of complaint to the newspapers, to present claims on behalf of neighbors ….. and not in my work as a lawyer or Town hall, which would be normal, would be my obligation or felt.
    I extend this “obligation” to areas outside the professional. And I assure you that when I help someone in this way I do not feel happy, on the contrary, I feel tired, tired and even used.
    So I took your warning seriously, if it does not give you joy do not do it.
    As Stefan comments this week I have had occasion to practice this, I have stopped taking the reins to help and I have left to the side …. and you know what ?? Everything has been solved without my help. The world is not over.

    On the other hand, I continue looking for my joy and my passion without having rediscovered them yet.

    But Monday came something interesting and very new to me.

    I went to my gym a little later than usual and at that time gave free course demonstration classes that will start in September.
    I had been in the previous week in a master class of hata yoga, which was fine, but hey … it was yoga. I do not know if you understand me, very relaxing, very good for the body, but really boring….

    So I looked into the room where the new class was to begin to see what it was about.
    There were several men (there were no women) between 25 and 40 as bears !! It was a boxing class!!!
    Immediately I stepped back as stealthily as I could to turn around, I had not seen, but behind me were two other women, one of my age and one who looked older, about 50.
    I did not know them. The three of us stood looking at each other, we laughed and we turned around.
    We were leaving when the coach came out to call us, a giant about two meters and tells us: girls, where are you going ?? Enter to try a class. Do not be surprised to see all these gorillas.
    I was a spokesperson (of course !, saving the rest … lol), and I said no, we only looked, but that boxing did not, thank you but we did not go that fight.
    He very kindly told me: As you wish, but I would like you to try so that you see what it is. We do not come here to beat us here. Anyone who wants to fight here will not find his place. Here we come to reconnect with our body, to root ourselves, to be flexible and to draw the inner strength that we all carry within. But above all we come to have fun.

    I do not know if this man is a boxer or hypnotist, because without a word one after another we enter the boxing room.

    The fact is that we were the Monday, Wednesday, yesterday and today we have class again.
    It’s really fun.
    The guys there are charming and respectful to us, the monitor is a real boxing guru and knows how to convey that passion and that code of honor of the sport.
    And these women I’ve met there are great. One is a biologist and works in an epidemic prevention laboratory and the other is a French translator of books.
    We did not know each other, but we have already created our Telegram group “Boxing Girls” and we already have appropriate names, Warrior Princess Evelyn, Betty Cyclone and I … Whirlwind Cris. Jajajajja !!!!!
    We had fun as girls and that we are between 44 and 52 years !!! 😉

    I know this is not a big deal. This is not creating the life of my dreams. But it really got me out of my comfort zone and familiar terrain. And that is enough.
    Love, blesses and sparkles
    Cristina

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    • 32. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:52 am

      ex- joyful light , What do you mean?? To something like a marmot’s day (the movie) or a deja vu continuous ???

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    • 33. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:55 am

      Because I have had old situations that seemed settled that seemed to want to resurrect again … not exactly the same, but similar. As they appeared to eliminate them definitively from my life. Those who follow astrology say that it is the result of the retrograde mercury in which we are immersed these days … but I am not very sure.

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    • 34. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:13 am

      Cristina,
      It’s not like a marmot’s day (movie) but yes I used the word deja vu this week.
      It is almost alarming how many identical details occur in a single experience. The persons are others, the places also. But otherwise…
      I thought about if Mercury is retrograde. In other words: once experienced again, done with it?

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    • 35. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:18 am

      Oh how interesting !!
      May be what some describe as the leap of time lanes ??
      Or maybe you could look at some alternative reality or parallel world ??

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    • 36. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:20 am

      Are all hypothesis, of course, but it is interesting what you say you experienced and in these times of change and transition everything, everything, may be possible, do not you think ??

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    • 37. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:29 am

      Oops I am not very well versed in such things. But I like it a bit more than Merc retro.
      Up to now I didn´t got an answer why all these happened. Or what´s it meaning.
      Thx Cristina!

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    • 38. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:33 am

      Yes, Cristina, definitely interesting! But also exhausting!

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    • 39. Stefan  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:06 am

      Great story, especially the nicknames!
      And 30′ ago I read a story on trying things again as they will have a new vibration now and the old memories associated have dissipated. I’m thinking about boxing again as well. See you in the ring in Vegas Chris! 😉

      An epiphany today: my current home and the previous ones were always left by the previous renter (is that a word? He who rents) with mess left all over the place. So it was me who decided to clean up the mess, solve the problems if you will.
      And as I started talking to my neighbour about my previous jobs, I discovered that I have always been the problem solver! Lawyer, insurance broker, project leader, football agent and also as a healer, what I did was helping others with their issues.

      Why did I do this? I thought I liked it, but I actually don’t… I crumble when I hear other people’s drama, issues,… it massively drains me of energy.
      Then it dawned upon me: as a child I played the role of problem solver between my mother and father. A marriage without love, where the reality of my microcosmos was an infinite story of distrust, anger, bitterness, reproaches, sadness,…
      As a child I wanted so much for my parents to love each other, I became litterally stuck in the middle. Never being able to do good for either since they did not love themselves, and my energy went into a bottomless pit. No matter what I tried, the result I so desperately longed for never came. And so unconsciously, my macrocosmos program became: no matter what you do, you will always fail.

      Not only did I write an unconscious program of ‘failure’, I also ended up being programmed to ‘solve problems’. Like Sisyphus who is sentenced to keep rolling the giant stone ball up the hill and back, ad infinitum.
      Yet, this is not my soul’s purpose. I’m not here to help other people, been there done that, I’m here to have fun.
      With today’s insight, I’m coming closer to what I want to do. Don’t know it yet, but the Great Spirit will show me the way as it has always done so. Thanks.

      Funnily enough, today my neighbour started cleaning up our mutual fence, and it looks much better now. It seems someone else is solving problems now.
      Hallelujah! Can I get an A-men because about 666tons of lead just fell off my shoulders and little Stefan/big Stefan are free of “shoulds” now.
      Have a nice weekend. X

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      • 40. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:43 am

        Dear Stefan,
        YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You’re freeing yourself from the shackles that once seemed necessary, but are now a burden. Go Stefan!
        Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Self-love and Self-worth Sparkles,
        Brenda

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    • 41. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:33 am

      Hi Cristina,
      How fun is that! My husband and I started a gym class we love also and I’m returning to a weight lifting class tomorrow. I’m having fun with exercise also!!!!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Self-love Sparkles,
      Brenda
      PS Love that you discovered that once you stopped taking care of others, they figured out how to care for themselves. We caretakers go through that lesson over and over, don’t we!

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    • 42. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:35 am

      Dear Ex-joyful Light,
      I have been in a crabby mood until today. I figured I was releasing some pent up emotions.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Self-love Sparkles,
      Brenda

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    • 43. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:36 am

      Cristina, I love your story! I always loved the moves of boxing (but I could have never watched fights).
      „Here we come to reconnect with our body, to root ourselves, to be flexible and to draw the inner strength that we all carry within. But above all we come to have fun.”
      Yes, thats exactly what I feel thinking about boxing/your class.
      I often integrated boxing moves into my gymn classes (I was a gymn coach for about 7 years) – because I simply loved them. Many years later boxing moves found it´s way into gymn classes worldwide.
      I understand you, and the guys (gorillas 😉) – and the coach. It´s a lot of fun!

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    • 44. janis´¯`·.¸ʚįɞ  |  August 30, 2017 at 2:20 pm

      Love this!

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  • 45. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:55 am

    Strange week.
    There are so many “past events” this week. I mean I experience them anew but they are almost identical. It started Monday/Tuesday that some had/have to re-expeerience some „not so pleasent situations“ from newer past. Did some one of you had the same experience?
    Greetings, Doris

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    • 46. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 9:57 am

      Oh, lose your care, do not apologize
      I had understood you the same, nor did I notice that it appeared in response to my post;)

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    • 47. Delfina Gasoido  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:00 am

      To what will be true of mercury retrograde ??? Hahaha
      What a mess of communications, I do not know or where I write.
      Brenda is going to punish us when she sees what a “house” mess we’re leaving her !!

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      • 48. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 10:19 am

        Hahaha, yes!
        There was no reply button when I answered to you before. But mistakenly I pushed the like button! 🙂 I have no idea if a like can be undone 😉
        Hahaha, yes what a mess!
        Kisses and mess-sparkles, Doris

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      • 49. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:39 am

        Not to worry about punishment, Doris and Cristina, I just wondered how I missed all these interactions until now. All is well and good!

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      • 50. ex- joyful light  |  August 25, 2017 at 11:50 am

        Yes!!!
        In retrospect Cristina and I had a lot of fun. Like childs in a sandbox. A little bit sand here and a bit there. 😊
        Love and sparkles, Doris

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      • 51. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 26, 2017 at 4:24 pm

        To sandbox time and giggles, Doris!!

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  • 52. elizabethsadhu  |  August 25, 2017 at 6:45 pm

    What fun this place is! I am loving it. Great boxing story! Great releasing of old stuff! This all feels so so great!

    love, Elizabeth

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    • 53. LifeTapestryCreations  |  August 26, 2017 at 4:26 pm

      Releasing of the old, sandbox time, dancing on moonbeams, more fun and less fear are the order of the day and the remainder of our beings on earth.

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  • 54. Stefan  |  August 26, 2017 at 1:58 pm

    Today’s was ‘attack by unloving female archetypes’ for me.

    I sent a message to my mother saying I wouldn’t come for lunch tomorrow, have done so for 4 Sundays in a row, and she doesn’t bother replying. No ‘have a nice weekend too’ or ‘ that’s fine son!’. No the eternal silent treatment of the narcissistic mother who only likes the oldest child of 5, the golden child. If her expectations are not met, and hence feels her power is slipping away, there’s no other option for her than retaliation by silence.

    My ex sent me a message about taxes regarding the appartment we had together and sold a few months ago. The money has already been paid to her by the new owner, she just has to pay it to the tax authority now. Of course, that was not her plan.
    First she told me she would pay half on my account, so I could also pay half. I told her that I wasn’t paying anything because she already got the money from the new owner and mostly because I have literally dropped my pants to make the sale of the appartment work. I even paid rent for 7 years, when I didn’t live there. Yes, you read that right. I paid her rent for my property. Insane. But we have a kid together you see, a girl. If it weren’t for her, I would have never seen my ex again nor paid her a dime.
    She didn’t agree, of course, and started using arguments why I should pay half. I’m still flabbergasted of how vicious, cruel and unbelievably disrespectful her attack was and the words she used. This was evil in its purest form. Emotional venomous poison.
    To add one last thing, earlier this week I found out she’s part of a whatsapp group about me. Yes, a whatsapp group about me, with old acquaintances that I never see anymore. I was told she speaks about my daughter as well and was quoted saying my daughter came to her to tell her ‘daddy had a good day’.
    The fact that daddy is taking care of our child every other week for the last 8 years, with no help from family or friends, meanwhile paying money I shouldn’t to keep the mother living in our appartment and that daddy is going through the hell of recovering from childhood sexual, emotional and psychological abuse with no help whatsoever are of course not relevant. I am the subject and slander, gossip and in short all means justify the end of shaming he who is brave enough to take the spiritual path.

    Now, while she started coming up with more arguments which were simply either made up or lies, I simply said: I’m not paying a penny, which part do you not understand? Then she hung up.
    The same tactic my mother uses, the silent retreat. The narcissist who feels she has no power over another person anymore, goes silent to punish. The slander, gossip and shaming are of course complimentary.

    My ex is just like my mother, should have read Carl Jung in high school I guess, but at least it’s clear now…

    I hereby declare that all narcissists are officially banned from my Kingdom of Joy. Yes I know you are sensitive and were hurt really bad in your childhood. So were the empaths. Yet empaths have taken the long and hard road of self-discovery, trauma release and silencing the ego.
    It is now time for the hurt children who are only about the ego, to make the same journey. From ego to love.
    With all my heart I hope they make it to the other side. If not, too bad, yet no tears from me. I have been used, abused and beaten down one time to many to stay emotionally connected to their insane human condition. I always rise after I fall, yet this time I’m staying up for good and walking away without ever to look back.

    Amen.

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