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Refilling Your Vessel

Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for LifeTapestry

Summary of Brenda’s July 31, 2020, channeled “Creation Energies” show at  As you allow your new you to emerge, you’ll discover your life stresses floating away. Such will likely be disconcerting for you’re so comfortable with stress, you don’t even realize you’re experiencing it. This process is similar to decompressing the first few days of vacation as you shift from the stress of your work-a-day world to relaxing without concerns or schedules.

“Others Will Evolve Without Your Interference” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for LifeTapestry

Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.

Dear Ones,

It seems as if all are sad, mad, or depressed – perhaps including you. You are a beam of sunshine for many, yet you feel as if your beam of light is not possible or even warranted. As if you should match the mood of the populace.

There are days you know all is right in your being and world. Only to discover that what you hoped for does not appear or that another inhumane activity has become part of your world.

It is as if you have given everything, including accepting disdain from those who never believed in new you to the loss of friends and family. You are lonely, a bit bitter, and immersed in the anger of the world.

You are also exhausted from clearing your pain only to discover that others want you to help them to do the same. You are tired of being of the earth, for it seems as if one pain, one fear, follows another. So it is you wish to close your mind and your physical being to all. Yet, you are lonely – a combination you have likely never before experienced to this degree in this lifetime. For you know the future – you think. But your rewards seem to be moving further away, instead of being accessible now.

Perhaps you dream of a vacation, certain interactions, performing on stage, parties, or furthering your education – all of which are hampered by COVID-19. Even though you have the resources to do something, it’s often not possible for you to do so.

Your freedom to move about has been hampered. Even those who prefer to be alone are finding their freedom of movement altered. Nothing is as it was.

You have moved through your personal hell for this. Why? For what purpose?

We, of the Universes, continue to inform you that all is wonderful and progressing according to the plan you helped design. Such information matters little. For even though you may not be directly affected, your loss of 3D freedom without a reward in another arena has you questioning everything you experienced throughout this transition.

You will, if you have not already, become less and less emotional about 3D actions and activities. But as you do so, you are also losing your 3D sense of joy. So instead of shifting to another joy, it feels as if you have no joy.

Where is your reward? It is difficult to interact freely with your friends and family. And if you do, their excitement, their concerns are not that interesting. So, where is your joy?

You are angry and likely bored. You have emptied your 3D vessel so you no longer experience 3D joy.

So it is you have started searching for your new life. Which is probably not that pleasant. For you have trained for eons to know what gives you 3D pleasure and joy. A new toy. A new community. A new job. Family interactions. Perhaps a wedding, graduation, or a party. Yet, none of those actions feel as they once did. That makes you angry. For you achieved what you set out to do when you initiated this transition – letting go of your 3D life. You just did not expect that loss to be as profound as it now feels.

You thought you would gracefully shift from 3D to the joy of 5D or beyond quickly. You did not expect this void of time or space, which is compounded by COVID.

So it is your vessel is ready to be filled with new thoughts and actions. Such will happen within the next few weeks. Think of your earth being as an empty water glass that once contained a sticky, smelly substance. Now that you are an empty vessel with seemingly no role, you wish to have another liquid in your container. That new liquid is being created by you minute-by-minute.

What was it about that 3D sticky, smelly substance in your container you did not like? How can you create something airy, sparkly, and fun? That is what you are contemplating or, at least, contemplating once you allow yourself to detach from your anger.

Have you ever been in an argument only to realize the argument is too unpleasant to continue or not worth your time? That is the phase you are in now. For you are angry but beginning to realize that anger is not who you are or wish to be. Once you do so, you will begin filling your glass with sparkly fun. Fun that is not curtailed by anything outside of you, including COVID-19. For the anger you are experiencing is not about you or for you. It is merely your need to more fully understand your newly emptied vessel.

Nothing from 3D will be part of your new vessel even though you will likely try to stuff 3D into your vessel – only to discover it continues to be sticky and smelly.

You are an empty vessel – and frightened that such is so. You feel the need to refill it as quickly as possible. But each 3D action and object you attempt to fill your vessel with feels wrong, lifeless, and boring. Which frightens you even more for that means your earth being has no meaning, no purpose.

COVID is forcing you to go within. For that which is outside of you is now tainted. It is no longer as it once was even if you try to make it so.

You are a new being trying to discover yourself outside yourself. Nothing outside of you will fill you up. It is time for you to project your needs within. What is it you are missing? How can you fill that need from within?

Because this transition is a process, you might be living with others at different stages than you – which complicates your interactions even more.

What do you need? How can you create that from within? That is your mission now.

Even though it might be difficult for you to understand, this time of isolation is a blessing.

Your new joys, your new sparkles are to be generated from within. Starting with the knowledge that you wish to fill your empty vessel with sparkles and joy indicative of new you, instead of who you used to be. So be it. Amen. To receive Brenda’s Blog, please click the Subscribe Button on the upper part of her “Blog & Subscribe” page and then click the – Subscribe to Brenda’s Blog by E-mail – line. Complete your subscription by entering your e-mail address and accepting the e-mail confirmation.

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August 3, 2020 at 12:10 am 15 comments

Shouting Hooray!

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Summary of Brenda’s December 1, 2017, channeled 15-minute “Creation Energies” show at Even though you and Brenda are one cohort, you have unique paths, so not all shifts are of the same depth. The current energies pummeling earth until at least the first of your new year will allow you to KNOW who you are and circumvent your need to jump between 3D and 5D. This knowledge will create an inner light of peace attracting those mired in 3D chaos.

“Forerunners Extraordinaire” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for

Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.

Dear Ones,

Shout hooray to all corners of the Universes for you overcame tremendous obstacles to bring New You into being. Even though you do not feel that different, you will as you adjust to your new being.

You completed similar shifts throughout your 3D lives from childhood to puberty to young adulthood, and on and on – throughout which you adapted without much fuss knowing that you were no longer a child or young adult, etc.

So it is now. You are different, but you have no outer example to prove you completed the phases necessary for this difference. So it is you do not sense what we do about your new being. We see your angel wings slowly unfolding as you grasp the reality of your new skills and direction.

You expected that you would fully know and understand once you shifted to this phase. That you would be so different or in a different place that you could not deny who you were.

Such is true. But because you have no one to compare to, you cannot note the growth as was true in 3D. Throughout your 3D lives, you had markers of who you were or about to become. Markers that persisted eon after eon in visible ways.

You do not yet understand the current indicators that you are different. Perhaps your thought shifts are dramatic enough for you to know that something has happened internally, perhaps not. For your difference is in frequencies within you, not the outer demarcations with which you are most comfortable.

Despite our continuing assertions that you are of 5D or beyond, you continue to question that wisdom internally and externally. Where is your graduation cap and gown? Where is your wedding ring? Where is your new home?

There are no outer indicators other than you selecting more varied experiences in your joy search.

You are different, but you do not yet believe you are different. You work and interact with the same people as before your shift. You are living in the same community, and yet, something feels different. Not different enough to warrant the hoorays we are sending your way, but a bit different.

That which used to provide you with joy does no longer. That which used to be uncomfortable is no longer. That which you did not understand is understandable. That which you did not know is now part of your knowledge base. Yet, you continue to claim you have not changed.

We beg to differ for we sense the difference in your auras, beings, and actions. You are beginning to claim your worth and your new skill set in ways we did not imagine possible before your earth entry in this lifetime.

It is as if you have transitioned from meek Clark Kent to Superman without the need to change your clothing or demeanor.

Perhaps you are discovering that some people no longer wish to associate with you. Not because you are a bad influence, but because you are too powerful to feel comfortable with – until they claim their power also.

So it is you are feeling lonely – not because of who you were, but who you now are. Which is little different from your childhood or even adult experiences.

Do you remember that when you reached puberty, your younger cousins or friends held little interest for you? Or outgrowing friends as an adult when your interests or activities were no longer compatible? So it is now. You are evolving more rapidly than most around you so you are finding them annoying or they are finding you somewhat frightening.

You have shifted, and they have not. That is not to say they will not catch up at some later date, but that you are in a different place with different interests. Just as you hoped before entering earth in this lifetime.

You are a forerunner, and you are experiencing your transition before the majority. So it is you feel alone and underappreciated. Even though that will dramatically shift the next few months, you are now like yogurt before yogurt became a daily diet staple for the masses.

Your lonely feelings are not an indication of being wrong, but instead that you are absolutely in the right place. You have just elected to be at that place before others.

You did it. You claimed your new being and have left your safety cocoon

Which is little different from United States scoutmasters of the 1800’s who forged paths throughout the current United States even though they would have been more physically comfortable in other parts of the US. Their need to explore drove them further and further from their then known western civilization.

You have that same spirit. For it would have been easier for you to be a follower of forerunners instead of a forerunner.

Your inner drive determined your direction and pace. Both of which pushed you to your current peak of achievement.

You did it! You discovered the magic land. You are the greatest of the great. Something you will discover within you as you rest from your recent shifts.

You not only discovered the path you opened that path to the masses. Now and only now will the masses follow. First, those who are fairly brave and then those who do not dare leave their safety nets until they KNOW without a doubt that all is safe in their new world.

So it is you are crowned forerunners exceptional for daring to forge ahead despite your fears, setbacks, anger, and loneliness.

Now allow yourself to rest before you expand your wings to fly into your new world shouting HOSANNA to the masses. So be it. Amen. If you would like to receive Brenda’s Blogs when posted, please click the Subscribe Button on the upper part of her Blog & Subscribe page and then click the – Subscribe to Brenda’s Blog by E-mail – line. Complete your subscription by entering your e-mail address and accepting the e-mail confirmation.

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