I’m Not Going to Take it Anymore!

October 10, 2016 at 10:55 am 34 comments

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Summary of Brenda’s October 7, 2016, channeled, 15-minute “Creation Energies” show at  http://www.BlogTalkRadio.com/brenda-hoffman:   The next few days, you’ll solidify your place in 5D via better understanding the courage of those enmeshed in the earth chaos of floods, volcanic eruptions, etc., as well as those remaining steadfast in 3D fear and power grabbing. All are volunteering so that you and more and more others fully shift from fear to joy. Earth chaos events open your hearts, and 3D fear at all levels points out who you no longer wish to be. 

“You’re of the 3D Audience Now” is the title of this week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly, channeled blog for www.LifeTapestryCreations.com.

Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.

Dear Ones,

Many of you are feeling deep anger. Anger because you have not yet created what you want. Anger at politicians. Anger at earth eruptions. Anger at those people who will not allow you to be you. And anger at anger.

You believed you shifted beyond deep anger – that your world would be joyously happy by now. Yet, you are angry about so many parts of your life.

This anger is about what you do not have. Even though such a concept is selfish in 3D terms, here you are.

Such anger is yet another piece of self-love. For it is more about all that you accepted or did not accept for yourself in past earth lives than what is happening in your current life. All those hurts in which you denied yourself are coming to the surface. So that now something that ordinarily would not have bothered you requires hours, maybe even days of anger.

All is well and good for that anger indicates you are truly accepting yourself. Of course, such a thought seems counterintuitive for where is the joy?

Even though joy is your goal, joy can only be achieved through self-love. So it is you are cleansing those pieces related to self-betrayal that you placed deep within you throughout the eons.

Your anger is balancing your earth eons of self-denial.

Allow yourself to feel this anger – it is not bad nor a return to 3D. Your anger merely indicates that self-love has become your priority.

Now many of you are clamoring – because you are angry – this is not the life you expected. “Where’s my joy? Where’s the fun in anger?”

You will achieve your joy, but not if you hold your self-love ransom with the unworthiness you have stuffed within your earth beings for eons.

To accept your joy, self-love, you have to fully honor and respect yourself. So it is you are discarding those pieces deep within you that allowed you to feel not worthy of reward or self-love.

Perhaps this round-about way of discovering your true worth seems wrong. Should there not be a good witch waving a magic wand, so you do not have to feel this deep anger? Should it not be easier to love yourself?

Please remember that the stages you are completing to love yourself – and this transition – are en masse events. You, as a group, determined the direction, time frame and outcome of this transition. Your directive was to shift the earth to 5D or beyond. How you achieved that goal was entirely up to you and your cohorts.

En masse you decided your physical being could not withstand this particular stage until the self-love energies of the past few weeks bombarded your being and anyone else open to internalizing them.

As a result, earth and earth beings are far different from what was true a mere five or six weeks ago. Others, besides yourself, are declaring their freedom from those who wish to control them, from the fear energies that have floated about earth for eons, from anything that halts their dreams or directions.

You are rapidly becoming part of an underground, internal revolution of, “I’m not going to take it anymore. This part of earth history is done, a new chapter is beginning – and I’m part of that new chapter.”

So it is you will discover a greater and greater divide between those who accept self-love and those who are afraid of it.

Such is part of your current anger. “How can they not see they are powerful enough not to require a leader? That they can create their world within the energies of New Earth, that is bigger and better than anything anyone outside themselves can promise or create?”

These thoughts do not require you to leave your home, relationship, job, or community. Instead, these thoughts are a call to your new being to dare to be. So it is you are becoming angry enough to say to YOURSELF, “I’m not going to take it anymore.”

Anticipate many unexpected interactions.

You are a new being discovering how truly capable you are via clearing those pieces of unworthiness that you have hidden from yourself for eons.

But you have yet to discover a better way of clearing those pieces other than anger. Those who follow will clear their lack of self-worth more easily and rapidly because of you.

You are courageous scout masters astounding everyone – including yourself. So be it. Amen.

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  • 1. soulspeak2013  |  October 10, 2016 at 11:17 am

    Dear Star Sister and Friend
    Amazing again…as always…
    The deepened truth that now rises, DOES bring healthy matured anger…and as we observe this energy signature of anger, we can step into acceptance, for the unfolding, that would indeed stop at anger, if we did not fully accept. BUT…with allowing the unfolding of this anger, we immediately feel compassion …not oh poor thing…but oh wow..THIS is the anger I did not express at that time in that experience, or that stage of the life path. We are empowered as we accept the anger as cleansing and assisting in unifying the many defragged spaces that this “lost” anger was dwelling in.
    INDEED…we truly have been in this immense Wave of Self Love and Unconditional Love….what a way to step fully into our Mastery…
    Blessings abundant❤

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    • 2. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:05 pm

      Hi Star Sister/ SoulSpeak/ friend,
      Yes! “THIS is the anger I did not express at that time in that experience or that stage of the life path.” Resulting in so many of our unworthiness feelings now.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,

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  • 3. soulspeak2013  |  October 10, 2016 at 11:18 am

    Reblogged this on At the Table, On my Plate.


    • 4. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:07 pm

      Thank you so much, SoulSpeak/Star Sister/Friend, for posting my channel at At the Table, On my Plate SoulSpeak2013.WordPress.com

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  • 5. elizabethsadhu  |  October 10, 2016 at 12:17 pm

    Reblogged this on elizabethsadhu and commented:
    Love love love! Always so synchronous! Beautiful!

    I just started doing the 21 Day Consciousness Cleanse. I am reading the book by Debbie Ford. So, all you say here is so perfect!

    Thank you dear sister friend.

    Love you

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    • 6. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:09 pm

      Hey Sweetie!
      Thank you so much for posting my channel at ElizabethSadhu ElizabethSadh.WordPress.com. And for telling me how synchronistic it is for you this week!!!!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,

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  • 7. Delfina Gasoido  |  October 10, 2016 at 12:30 pm

    Dear Brenda,
    again it is given a magical synchrony between your post and my experiences
    Today at 14.30 I went to the gym. I usually spend an hour and a half to do all my routines. At that time few people and the few that we are in peace and harmony.
    It was 15:45, I was almost finished, I was already stretching. There were two very polite young boys, about 20-25 years.
    When arrived a couple. The man was about 60 years old and the women about 50-55. And without saying anything, they go to the stereo in which he was playing a radio pop-rock music … and without asking permission, turn it off and put a very very loud unbearable music of hard rock or heavy or I do not know what kind of raucous squeals.
    Without asking for any odds of three people who were there if they could!!!
    At that time I was stretching back hanging upside down from a machine almost had a heart attack scare.
    After the shock, I started up a kind of fireball from the solar plexus up blinding me with anger. I was so scared of myself, I gave terminate my stretching session (I still had about ten minutes) and I left without saying anything.
    Such was my anger that I had abit hit with a dumbbell in the head to see his blood out. And I do not mean metaphorically. It is literal. I panic. I’m not so violent.

    When leaving the building I sat in the car to think about what happened, which really is just rude. Surely if I had asked them to come down the volume would have done and would have apologized.
    What came to me is that this removed some old episode (perhaps other lives) in which I allowed abuse.
    However I was worried, even if this fact touched a spring of abuse and disrespect of another life, my reaction was not normal.

    I had to fly off the gym, because anger was abnormal that blinded me to this fact This left me a little worried, I looked at my chart where it had to Mars today or something … looking for a explicaion this unusual and absurd fact .
    And you, my dear sister / friend, had the answer. Bless you
    Love, blesses and sparkles

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    • 8. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:20 pm

      Hi Cristina,
      I had a similar experience shortly after my husband died in 1981. A co-worker was lying to our employer about her treatment of our clients. My reaction was a need to strangle her with my bare hands. My hands started tingling with feelings I’ve never had before or since. I left my employer’s office immediately horrified at myself but with a better understanding those who do commit crimes.

      Our evolution and this transition continue to amaze me. We’ve come so far and yet, our new shifts are most often not at all what I anticipate. Courageous and yes, most definitely loving people all as we learn to truly love ourselves. A miracle in itself.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


  • 9. dreamweaver333  |  October 10, 2016 at 1:10 pm

    Reblogged this on dreamweaver333.


    • 10. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:21 pm

      Thank you so much for posting my channel on DreamWeaver333 DreamWeaver333.WordPress.com


  • 11. Barb  |  October 10, 2016 at 2:15 pm

    Hi Brenda —

    Very timely message! Yeah, being angry, again, isn’t much fun. Nor was the wave of self-judgment that came up in the last several days. I began to wonder if I was feeling collective “stuff” because it was so pervasive for a few days (better today, thankfully), though maybe it was just my own collective past. I’ve been hyper-sensitive, too, affected by others’ moods and emotions — good and bad — on a whole other level than I’ve ever felt… even if only watching a movie!

    I suppose it’s a form of self-love, but after feeling so worried about everyone else’s well being for so long, right now there’s an element of “oh just get out of my way already.” Well, while still wanting good outcomes for all. I don’t want to run over anyone; I just want and need my own joy and freedom. ASAP.

    Hmm. Now that I look at those thoughts, the two appear related. Seriously, stop the care-taking or pay for it with the hypersensitivity. I guess it still feels kind of selfish to *really* put myself first, much as I *want* to. Such deeply ingrained training. Well, good to notice that at least. Thanks, as ever, for providing this space and sharing your gifts.


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    • 12. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 3:26 pm

      Hi Barb,
      Kudos and more kudos for sensing your connection between care-taking and hypersensitivity. I’ve noticed the same in myself recently. Even though I haven’t experienced the deep anger piece yet, I won’t be surprised if I do, given this week’s channel.

      And so we evolve and grow into ourselves!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


      • 13. Barb  |  October 10, 2016 at 10:38 pm

        Brenda, did the hurricane end up impacting you or your area at all? It looked like bands of it went farther inland than expected. It’s all so heartbreaking.


      • 14. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 10, 2016 at 11:01 pm

        Dear Barb,
        No, we had some rain, wind and cooler weather but no difficulties. Fortunately, much of SC was prepared for the worst, and the worst didn’t happen (Hurrican Hugo created more havoc in SC). The same was not true for NC.

        As always, I wish I had magic wand abilities to eliminate or reduce the pain of those suffering in any way. Not as a caretaker, but as a loving being.
        Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


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    • 16. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 9:53 am

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  • 17. ECT  |  October 11, 2016 at 4:29 am

    Aaaah Brenda! what can I say? It just makes me smile now, how EVERYTIME I read you, you express so beautifully into words what I ( we!) am going through exactly at that time! It’s wonderful, and you are such a precious help. Thank you & Merci with all my heart.


    • 18. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 9:55 am

      Thank you, ECT! Knowing that my channels help others better understand themselves and this transition makes my day!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


  • 19. Marina  |  October 11, 2016 at 8:25 am

    Hello Brenda, thank you for this most timely and extremely helpful blog. Yes, one week ago, a sudden and totally unexpected “interaction” with my neighbour. A neighbour whose cranky behaviour I have tolerated for the past 10 years, behaving in unacceptable manner. Oh, the anger I felt (but did not express). I spent days working on the fallout of feeling such rage, and on past such experiences. I still have not fully resolved all this, but the information you have shared with us today has soothed my soul somewhat, and allowed me to feel more like my usual self. Many thanks, and as usual sending you
    Love and Light,
    Marina xxx😇😇😇


    • 20. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 9:57 am

      Hi Marina,
      YES! To clearing and cleansing even though not always comfortable to do so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


  • 21. CaYtharina  |  October 11, 2016 at 9:22 am

    Yes indeed..anger. This 20 something girl cut me off in traffic. It was a construction zone ..the lane ran out and she just came on over not looking. I was in my new/used car..only had it a month the first car in 27 years for me! I was livid..tailed her honking..shooting the finger..cussing..and what does she do..she slows to a crawl to make me more angry..I see why people snap..and I laughed at the peace sticker on the back of my car. Then I came home and got angry at an electronic object that quit working after 4! uses and eighty dollar expenditure..hurled it across my living room and it almost hit my Buddha statue..I freaked..and was humbled.
    Yes, I am mad as hell and not going to take it anymore,but..it sure does not make the inept government go away..war go away..cancer go away..and the political circus that is in town..seems to be not leaving town..and they just add more clowns.
    Acceptance of the status quo does not feel good always..how can there be so much dysfunction… if only people could just stop thinking of themselves all the time..or look at their actions to see how they effect their neighbors and towns and world….it could be such an easy fix.
    I think the oddest part of the anger at the driver the other day ..was that it felt good and bad at the same time..,and it shocked me how out of control I felt.
    Thank you again for your sharing..it helps so many of us see we are indeed not alone in our energies at play and that it is okay. I just keep moving from one moment to the next ..always trying to catch the light as you know….I know my true nature is not to walk around in anger..it is not my companion of choice,but it is soooo very human and in being human we are so many things..so, just stay human ,but most of all don’t hold on to anger..let it go ..let it fly out..and since ‘mother nature’ hates a void..decide what you will fill up the void of release with.
    IN my case..careless drivers who want to try and take me out or crash into me..well, I seem to have plenty of energy /anger reserves to deal with that…anger is a catalyst for change…and that can be a good thing..these days you never know when someone is carrying a gun..so, stay safe in the world my friends…but these days I am going to try to STAY CALM..and practice my Mona Lisa smile..peace to us all.


    • 22. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 10:04 am

      Hi CaYtharina,
      Maybe just maybe you had to “blow the lid” on your anger or maybe you don’t have to force yourself to stay calm right now. Only you know for sure, but I’m thinking that forcing ourselves to do or be anything takes away our freedom to be.

      We’re discovering us in this new being in this New Earth. Maybe new us is a bit different from 3D us…or maybe not. Time will tell as we grow into new us. As I’m writing this I’m thinking of the emotional upheavals of puberty. Yet another thought about your recent anger.
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


      • 23. Catharina  |  October 11, 2016 at 11:39 am

        (I have no idea how the “Y” got in my name before)What is interesting in your response is that you mentioned “emotional upheavals of puberty”. Well, wow..as I was writing my comment I actually thought of all the times I did not express my anger in my puberty from fear. I was sexually molested on a regular basis by a male family member..usually at night ..waking up with a hand over my mouth and threats of what would happen if I say anything..for years I did not speak up for myself..express too much anger in relation ships etc…and now..now I am a spiritual warrior..I do not allow situations that try to threaten or demean me ..go with out my expressing myself. it is not always anger. I now have so much clarity in most situations that it just becomes ‘stating the facts mam’. I find it very intuitive of you to remark on my puberty..those little children in us just have a hard time ‘forgetting’ some of our experiences where we felt so powerless.
        IN my stating of where I am going to try and stay calm..it does not mean that I am letting go of my anger when it arises..it just means that I would like to just deal with the issue by just ‘stating the facts mam’..with out all the loud voice and throwing things. I can do better than that I feel.Thanks for responding Miss Brenda. You are so needed here during these energetic times of rapid evolving.


      • 24. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 11:47 am

        Hi Catharina,
        Again, Bravo for the courage to figure out how an extremely painful time in your childhood is affecting you now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
        Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


  • 25. TheSunnyDay  |  October 11, 2016 at 11:43 am

    Rather than anger… I don’t have any patience for bullshit anymore. Especially spiritual/ divine bullshit. You are the last messenger I read/ follow dear Brenda. So far it resonates. But I feel that a closure is at hand for this whole Alice in Wonderland episode of my life. It was a mistake to go on this spiritual adventure.
    Whatever is left of ‘my life’, I want to attend to it and my selfishness feels like fresh air and water.

    Here’s a little song for my so called higher self; if you exist:

    I don’t need you to worry for me cause I’m alright
    I don’t want you to tell me it’s time to come home
    I don’t care what you say anymore, this is my life
    Go ahead with your own life and leave me alone

    I never said you had to offer me a second chance
    I never said I was a victim of circumstance
    I still belong, >>>NOT don’t get me wrong
    And you can speak your mind
    But not on my time
    I don’t care what you say anymore, this is my life
    Go ahead with your own life and leave me alone.


    • 26. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 11, 2016 at 11:49 am

      Hi SunnyDay,
      And so you are declaring your freedom to stop!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


      • 27. TheSunnyDay  |  October 12, 2016 at 5:25 am

        Yes, otherwise I am very confused. As if the non-physical beings and higher self have a greater power over my life than me. As if I am not ‘allowed’ to have what I want or even need now because I am preparing for a certain event.
        As if there are many above me who controls my life, my bosses, a higher self, universal laws and hierarchies. Instead of feeling free, I end up feeling disempowered.


      • 28. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 14, 2016 at 9:22 am

        Dear SunnyDay,
        As always, ask yourself why you feel this way and how you can change your perceptions or actions.
        Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


    • 29. Gabriel  |  October 14, 2016 at 3:57 am

      Hey SunnyDay (somehow I can’t reply to your reply to Brenda),

      I feel where you are and honestly, if cutting your ties with the spiritual stuff (as you currently know it), makes you feel empowered again, I’d say go for it! 🙂

      I feel that the idea is that all of the higher realms, source, our higher selves “have our backs” and are looking over us and are guiding us, but if all of it ends up making you feel disempowered, then what’s the benefit?

      I resonate with what you’re saying though, especially the feeling like we can’t really have what we want or can’t yet create what we want to create because of this feeling of needing to wait or being held back until the time is somehow right. It’s incredibly frustrating, I know. It often makes me want to just give the finger to all of this or maybe even call it quits. I can’t tho because the sense of purpose is too strong, so I just keep on working at things.

      However, I have to admit that one thing I haven’t done enough of is…surrendering. Simply surrendering to everything. It doesn’t come easily for me, but I’m going to work on that more, since…everything else simply isn’t working. The manifesting (or trying to, at least) isn’t working. The pushing, the controlling aren’t working. What else is there? Surrendering. So…gonna see how that goes. 😉

      Good luck to you, whatever you choose to do. Who knows, perhaps a bit of a break from these things would do you well. Or you might find another way of approaching all of this. You’ll be fine regardless. 🙂


  • 30. Gabriel  |  October 14, 2016 at 4:18 am

    Incredible Brenda! Once again SO on the nose. 😉 Thank you.

    Last week started the focus on and eventual dissolution of the aspect of control, where impatience and irritation dominated. These days it’s anger.
    Anger at…so much, but basically the lower vibrations. Of still being in it, while knowing that it’s part of our service…yet…(again referring back to last week’s article) the impatience and feeling of “being done with it all” makes it feel insupportable.

    Last night even I found myself driving and looking around, shaking my head thinking “why…why is everything still like this?? Why am *I* still like this??” and just ranting and venting against my higher/inner self.

    I understand that we’re at this point due the acceleration, that it’s pushing us and driving us like crazy to release, reconsider, re-approach…surrender.

    I know I tried everything else…to no or limited avail. But surrendering feels scary.
    Heh, I sound like a newcomer. As if I haven’t done it all before, again and again. But…I must admit, I don’t think I’ve ever done it *enough*…


    • 31. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 14, 2016 at 9:21 am

      Dear Gabriel,
      This transition is so new for all of us that I’m taking it one day at a time. I wasn’t that terribly angry this week, but I did let go of yet another piece of caretaking and I found that my anger was as directly related to the event as it was more of an observation from somewhere beyond. It’s difficult to explain but much more peaceful and less direct than ever before. Even though I don’t know you, I remember when I first allowed myself to be really angry a couple of decades ago. I was furious at so many things – at times, I frightened myself by my deep and easy anger. But I knew I had to go through that to find the middle of my anger – from little anger to deep anger to find the middle. Could that be where you’re at?
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Creation Sparkles,


  • 32. angryX10  |  October 14, 2016 at 10:59 pm

    I am angry. I have an illness that has resulted in disability. I am angry at the illness. I am angry at life. I am angry at god. My sister sometimes helps me go to the store. But I don’t think she likes to no matter how much she protests that she doesn’t mind. Last week I tripped and fell. After trying to get up for almost 2 hours I called her to help me. I probably cracked some ribs and the pain was so great it interfered with me getting up. She was mad that day, but whether about my situation or her losing her job and her feeling the fear of not having her personal income, I am not sure. But I do know she yelled at me the whole time she was at my house. She expressed disgust that I no longer keep as clean a house as I used to. I now accept that I can no longer hop out of bed and sweep through the house like a cleaning tornado like I used to. So I have relaxed my standards. She has told me that it is awful to not have that clean house anymore. She took it upon herself to take out the garbage for me, which I was glad about. But I was not glad about her dragging the recycling can on wheels into my living room to make it easier for her. I have never done that and if I am too tired I only take outside what I can do that day. I had 3 boxes of papers and junk mail and 2 boxes of other recyclables to take out from trying to go thru some old stuff. I expressed my dislike of her bringing that filthy container into my living room and she said “Get over it. This is what I am doing.” I feel like my situation gives her permission to roll over me any way she desires. To make things worse, my disability hearing should have taken place over 12 months ago, and did not due to the atty not filing paperwork in a timely manner. He has now been telling me it will occur “any day now” and I no longer trust him. It would not be wise to get another atty at this stage. So I am angry. In the past I have heard of such nightmare situations happening to other people. Never did I realize it could happen to me. I am angry. It is now hard to imagine my life ever getting better and I realize that if it does not there is little reason to stay. My sister is not the only relative who treats me as if my imperfect life is not up to her standards. I have a brother who tries to belittle me too. Both my deceased sister and brother complained to me about how the sister treated them before they died and now I understand what they meant. They were angry too. I AM ANGRY.


  • 33. Holly  |  October 15, 2016 at 7:15 am

    Dear Brenda and All Here,

    I read this channel when it first came out and it’s right on for me too. I am having the most delightful morning drinking my coffee and reading everyone’s comments and decided to share how this is playing out for me.

    I left what I call 3D metaphysics this past year after a 25 year run. I took the Jim Self classes, the Celia Fenn Webinars etc. and poured myself into the teachings. What I found is that they got me nowhere. There were all kinds of rules which seemed to lessen people’s compassion and empathy for one another. They weren’t Universal Laws but often had a grain of truth which anyone whose delved in psychology will attest too. By the end there were just too many red flags for me to ignore and it kept me away from feeling heaven on earth NOW.

    I’ve left that world and love and accept myself unconditionally. I no longer separate any part of me. There’s not a divine part and a mundane part, it’s just me and all of it’s me. I do not put my divine self over my mundane self, treat my right hand more important than my left foot, put down my mind or ego as ‘lower’. I do not deny any part of me and there is no hierarchy or anyone more divine than I. We are all equals. I do not base my life on premises that others say are true but have no proof of. Example, reincarnation may be or may not be, I don’t really know so I’m not basing my here and now life on it. I’m not basing my life on a Bible that was written by men who say it’s god’s word at a time when women were not considered for anything other than their sexual behavior – whore or virgin.

    I personally choose to live by the golden rule and treat others how I want to be treated, with respect, that I am talking with a divine person who knows what’s best for them. I ignored the old rule of don’t talk about your ‘story’ anymore and found a therapist. I’m taking a good long look at my ‘story’ and the mental, physical and emotional conditioning crammed into me from day one. I saw for the first time that though everyone was abused in my bio family, I was singled out as the scapegoat from a narcissistic father and emotionally absent mother and I was the only one father release his rage on physically. I was abused on every level from the source that was supposed to nurture me and be my safe zone. I’m looking directly at it, naming it, feeling the rage and anger and am letting it go once each phase is out.

    The old 3D response to someone’s pain was to try to find something positive and say something like ‘well, it got you here didn’t it?’. Though they were only reciting what they learned in their metaphysical class and trying to be kind, it actually minimized the anger and pain I was feeling. It was trying to jump me past it. There is never a justification for child abuse and there’s nothing positive in it. Removing myself from those people abusing me and feeling the anger and rage without apology was and is for me the healing answer.

    As a result of looking at my ‘story’ my health is coming back online. What were debilitating illnesses are now over 75% gone and moving out rapidly: the fibromyalgia, depression, chronic fatigue syndrome, histamine intolerance, and more. The lifelong victim mentality is completely gone.

    I must admit I’m feeling kind of ‘afloat’ now that I’m not connected to my abusers and a little frightened as I meet new people. But what I’m noticing is that I have wonderful boundaries now and express them with kindness which took a little practice. I have never felt so free and wonderful in my life! Not that my life is exactly the way I want it yet but I’m directing my life and it feels wonderful! I’ve already created heaven on earth and am now perfecting it to suit my desires.

    I realize we’re all doing this our own way and they’re all perfect. My way is not someone else’s. There’s not one path with some behind and some ahead but I do find I get ideas from what others write and if it resonates I apply it. I’m grateful for everyone here sharing so thought I’d share as well.

    Thank you Brenda for yourself, your channels, your friendship, and your wisdom. You’re holding a base of energy as I fly about finding my way is a Godsend.

    Sincerelly, Holly

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    • 34. LifeTapestryCreations  |  October 15, 2016 at 9:41 am

      Hi Holly,
      Kudos and more kudos for loving yourself enough to break out of your 3D patterns and allowing yourself to be! You’re a beacon for us all!
      Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,

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